Midlife Butterfly: Stop Self-Abandoning & People Pleasing by Healing Your Nervous System — Feel Alive Again
Midlife Butterfly is a podcast for high-achieving midlife women who are tired of abandoning themselves just to hold everything else together. Hosted by Kena Siu, Identity & Embodiment Guide, this podcast explores emotional truth, nervous system healing, self-remembrance, feminine aliveness, and what it really means to come home to yourself after years of over-functioning, caregiving, people-pleasing, and survival mode.
If you've been feeling emotionally exhausted, disconnected from yourself, overwhelmed by everyone else's needs, or unsure who you are beyond your roles and responsibilities — you are not alone.
Each episode meets you where you are — in the exhaustion, the confusion, the quiet longing — and gently guides you back to yourself through nervous system awareness, embodied reflection, and deeply honest conversation.
This is a space for women navigating midlife awakening, emotional burnout, identity shifts, relationship patterns, self-worth, feminine healing, and the quiet longing to finally feel alive again.
You don't need to become someone new. You just need to remember who you truly are.
🔗 Connect with Kena:
🦋 Instagram: @midlifebutterfly
🌐 Website: midlifebutterfly.ca
Much love 💜, Kena Siu
Episodes
80 episodes
#77 - The Real Reason Midlife Women Struggle to Love Themselves
Have you ever wondered why you're supposed to suffer for love?What if the love you keep looking for outside yourself was your responsibility all along?In this episode, we explore why suffering for love is a progr...
BPF #2 - Processing Dark Emotions & Heal Your Nervous System
What if the emotions you've spent your whole life hiding... are actually the ones trying to guide you home?Butterfly Practice Fridays are short, intimate episodes designed to land in your body, not just your head.Consider...
#76 - When Self-Abandonment Was the Strategy That Worked & How to Come Back Home
You've done everything right. And somehow that's exactly the problem. This episode is for the woman who has built a beautiful life by overriding herself — and is finally ready to stop. 🦋 You'll Discover:<...
BPF #1 - Redefining Pleasure - Butterfly Practice Friday
Butterfly Practice Fridays are short, intimate episodes designed to land in your body, not just your head.Consider this your weekly permission slip.Every Friday, a simple practice to help you come home to yourself. Press play. Do ...
#75 - How Much Longer Are You Willing to Wait? Breaking the Comfort Zone in Midlife
Is there a friend you keep meaning to call — and you haven't?Is there a life you keep meaning to start living — and you're still waiting?This is one of those episodes that came from real life, raw and unfiltered. This week, Kena l...
#74 - From Functioning to Feeling: How to Reclaim Your Aliveness in Midlife
Are you moving through your days efficiently — but feeling strangely empty inside? What if the life you've built looks fine from the outside, but something underneath has gone quiet?This episode is an invitation to stop, feel, and ask th...
#73 - Reconnecting with Pleasure in Midlife: Intimacy, Shame & the Path to Feminine Aliveness with Trina Read
Have you ever felt completely disconnected from your own body — like pleasure was something that happened to other women, not you?What if the shame you carry around sex isn't a personal failing — but a pattern you were never...
#72 - The Slow Fade: How People-Pleasing Steals Your Identity
You didn't lose yourself all at once. It happened one small yes at a time.In this episode, we trace it back — to the exact moment the slow fade begins, and why most women can't pinpoint when they stopped being themselves.People-pl...
#71 - Why High-Achieving Women Feel Exhausted from Self-Abandonment
Many high-achieving women think they’re exhausted because they’re doing too much. But beneath the over-functioning, caregiving, people-pleasing, and constant responsibility, there’s often something deeper happening: self-abandonment.In t...
#70 - The Real Reason You Reach for Food — And What Your Body Knows
Have you ever finished eating something and immediately felt worse — not from the food, but from the story you told yourself about it?What if there was nothing wrong with you — and the only thing missing was understanding ho...
#69 - Fragmented, Exhausted & Disconnected: How Self-Abandonment Shows Up in Your Taboo Body Parts
What if the disconnection you feel from your body isn't a problem to fix — but a doorway leading you back home to yourself? This episode is for the woman who's been doing everything right and still feels like something's of...
#68 - The Three Places Your Body Armours For Protection & How to Heal
What if the reason you can't seem to change isn't a lack of knowledge — but that the body hasn't been part of the conversation yet? This is the episode for the woman who has done everything right — the courses, the therapy,...
#67 - Release What Holds You Back To Travel & Tips to Head to Your New Destination
Is there a trip — or a dream — that you've been saying "someday" to for so long it almost doesn't feel real anymore?What if the guilt you feel about choosing yourself isn't the truth — but just a story you were handed, and n...
#66 - •Why Am I Still Stuck? And How to Finally Bring Your Midlife Inner Work Into Transformation
You've read the books, hired the coaches, been to the retreats — so why do you keep coming back to the same patterns, the same reactions, the same stuck places?What if the transformation you've been seeking isn't missing — i...
#65 - What’s Truly Happening In Your Body During Midlife with Dr. Heather Awad
Have you noticed that the things that used to work — the way you ate, the way you exercised, the way you managed yourself — just don't work anymore?Your body is changing… and no one really prepared you for this. In t...
#64 - Stop Avoiding What Feels Off: A Midlife Woman's Guide to Emotional Healing
Have you ever been somewhere beautiful — a holiday, a gathering, a perfect moment — and still felt strangely off?This is a Reflection Bomb — short, honest, and straight from real life. Kena shares what happened on a morning when...
#63 - From Self-Abandonment To Full Remembrance with Kimber Hardick
Have you ever caught yourself telling the same story about your life — the one where you stayed too long, gave too much, and kept waiting for things to change? In Part 2 of this rich conversation, Kena and Kimber Hardick go...
#62 - Remembering Who You Are & The Truth About Emotions
Have you ever caught yourself in the middle of an old pattern — reactive, shrinking, or going silent — and thought, I thought I’d worked through this? What if the frustration isn’t a sign you’re failing — but proof that...
#61 - Why Self-Trust Is the Foundation of Real Intimacy for Midlife Women
Have you ever stayed quiet in a conversation — swallowed what you really felt — and then spent hours replaying what you wish you’d said?In this solo episode, Kena explores the connection most women never see: that the intimacy w...
#60 - Why High-Achieving Women Feel Trapped Beneath the Life They Built & How to Reclaim Who You Are
You survived it. You built the life. And somehow you're still carrying it — that secret, that shame, that version of you, you haven't let anyone fully see.In this raw and honest conversation with Candi Rose, we explore why so ma...
#59 - You Are the Source of Love: A Midlife Reflection on Self-Worth and Expansion
What if the love you've been longing for isn't somewhere out there — but has been living inside you all along, waiting to be remembered? In this intimate birthday solo episode, Kena shares the journey that transformed how s...
#58 - The Observer Shift: How to Stop Reacting and Start Living in Midlife
Are you meeting life as it is — or fighting it into what you think it should be? In this grounded solo episode, Kena shares what it really means to become the observer — through the lens of a certified neuroepigenetic breat...
#57 - 7 Ways Midlife Women Stop Self-Abandoning (And Start Making Their F*cks Sacred)
What if the reason you're still giving f*cks you don't want to give… isn't because you care too much — but because your body hasn't felt safe enough to stop? Born from a real, raw conversation with her pod sisters, this epi...
#56 - The Fertile Void: When Life Slows You Down on Purpose
What if the void you feel it’s guiding you to something great? If you’re in a season where you’re not moving forward, but you’re not moving backward either… this episode is for you.In this deeply grounding conversation, Kena ...
#55 - Stop Pushing, Start Planting: How Cyclical Living Transforms Midlife
What if you're not stuck — you're simply in Winter? In this gentle, grounding solo episode, Kena invites you to slow down and remember something your body already knows: you are cyclical by nature. If midlife has you feelin...